God is with you

Depression as in melancholy, is a darkness that is sly inside it's victims. It seems to be gone, maybe for a long time thanks to medications. Then, crash! One day you awaken and find out it's back. Maybe not as bad as you can recall, but quietly nibbling at your psyche. Insecurity creeps in. A troublesome anxiety about what you think and say or do. Some paranoia tells you no one loves you. Worse than that, you know life is full of uncertainty, and you will surely sink into some dark hole, where no one can find you, ever. But, even in that there is some unmeasurable peace. It is at least peace. That dark hole can be insanity, catatonic stupor, or blunting of your self into non existence. Or, God reaches you deep within, maybe unknowingly, and you are saved. The depression is still there, but you push on, put on the light in the room and eventually you are above the sadness and desperation. Yes, the melancholy is still there. It is not in control of you because you can hang on with God. God is aware and knows you and so you pray. You are stronger with a holy partner, than alone. Keep praying for the peace of God.